What is this all about?
What am I doing? What am I doing here?
A couple of months ago I started studying "Applied Knowledge Management" at the University. At the moment I really don't know why I am doing this. I am so frustrated.
I never wanted to study just to get a degree at the end. I want to get something out of it. I want to create knowledge myself.
At the moment the only thing I feel is being in a hurry. The only thing I do is rushing around between the papers and the exams. We have so many different things to do. The problem is not the amount of subjects. It is the amount of different topics within a subject. There are so many papers to write. I can all do them with exact the right effort to pass. But that is not what I want. I want to concentrate on my work and do it as good as possible. But in fact everything seems so superficial. At university everyone talks about quality and measuring the output. But where is our quality?
I don't think I am lazy. No, not at all. Though I work 6 hours a day in a private company, have a wonderful husband and two little children I sit every night from 8 until midnight or even longer. At the weekend I always send them somewhere to find time for my papers. I spend so much time on my studies. For what? For mediocrity!
I am faced inner struggles. I really want to get through my studies and I know I can do it. But I am no longer sure whether I want it. Is this the proper way for me?
A couple of months ago I started studying "Applied Knowledge Management" at the University. At the moment I really don't know why I am doing this. I am so frustrated.
I never wanted to study just to get a degree at the end. I want to get something out of it. I want to create knowledge myself.
At the moment the only thing I feel is being in a hurry. The only thing I do is rushing around between the papers and the exams. We have so many different things to do. The problem is not the amount of subjects. It is the amount of different topics within a subject. There are so many papers to write. I can all do them with exact the right effort to pass. But that is not what I want. I want to concentrate on my work and do it as good as possible. But in fact everything seems so superficial. At university everyone talks about quality and measuring the output. But where is our quality?
I don't think I am lazy. No, not at all. Though I work 6 hours a day in a private company, have a wonderful husband and two little children I sit every night from 8 until midnight or even longer. At the weekend I always send them somewhere to find time for my papers. I spend so much time on my studies. For what? For mediocrity!
I am faced inner struggles. I really want to get through my studies and I know I can do it. But I am no longer sure whether I want it. Is this the proper way for me?
posted by mummysilvia @ 10:56 AM
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